Diabetes is so expensive!

Amy-

I am so frustrated right now because I LOVE pumping but I keep accidentally doing things that waste me sooo much money! Like today...

So I was doing a site change and changing my reservoir, which you would think would be fairly simple at this point, since I've been pumping since March 1st. But no, I somehow managed to prime my entire reservoir onto the kitchen table while I was attempting to put the reservoir in my pump. Yeah, doesn't sound like a big deal, but that's 100 units of insulin wasted right there! I can still smell a very strong scent of insulin all around me and it's making me see red because it's a reminder that I wasted so much money!

About a month ago, I was drawing up Novolog into my reservoir, and I dropped the insulin bottle on the floor. That's like a 1,000 units I wasted then! I was ready to cry.

Twice now- the last time just 3 days ago- I guess I picked a poor infusion site because I was having a ton of blood sugars over 300 even though I kept bolusing, so I finally took off the infusion site, and the cannula was bent. And it's happened twice now! Wasting perfectly good infusion sets due to my stupidity!

I'm just really frustrated right now...I want to be the perfect diabetic and be the perfect insulin pumper and get everything right, and I also want to to prove to myself as well as my parents that getting an insulin pump WASN'T too expensive. But right now I am failing because my numbers aren't even good, like at all! AHHHH!!!!!

I guess I just need to take a deep breath and start new each day. Not just give up. I have been looking around on the diabetes community, though, and I see people who have A1C's of 5.2, and blood sugars constantly below 180, and eat less than 50 carbs a day, and I don't know how they do it, but I wish I could get to that point!

I may look healthy but after so many blood sugars over 300 I'm not feeling that great. I've even lost a few pounds which I know has to be due to high blood sugar. Which freaks me out because I know all the risks that all those high levels are going to entail!

Okay I shall stop now. Sorry for the whinging! Not that anyone is reading this probably!

Finally pumping!

Amy- I am now pumping with a pink Minimed 522 and it is fabulous although I just started yesterday :) but...well. My blood sugar has been REALLY low. I will tell you my settings and then my bg's so far and you can decide for yourself! Okay first of all, my flat basal rate is
0.35
My I/C ratio is 1/20
and my IS is 1/75.
Which seems all rather low for an 18 year old girl, right? So I was expecting highs! Well...take a look at my sugars so far!
Yesterday...
2:33 p.m.- 94
3:15 pm.-126
6:32 p.m.-84
7:35 p.m.-51
9:45 p.m.-77
10:55 p.m-123
Today
1 am-49
4:51 am-102
10:22 am- 38 (!!)
11:30 am-143
2:40 pm-28 (!!!!)
So I'm not wild about all these lows...they scare me a lot!

2/26/10

hannah:

183

196

158

107

i was kinda highish today i think it was because my basal setting are wrong so im gonna see about changing that. i also had a very irregular day eating wise. but i think i counted my carbs right its just my settings.

HaNnAh~~~ hmm what could we do?? i was thinking we could host like a 5k or something. and maybe sell like bracelets? anymore ideas?

Minimed

So I am trying my absolute bestest to purchase an insulin pump. If my insurance covers enough, I will be getting the Minimed Paradigm 522. In pink. I already started the process, but somehow I think that it's going to be very complicated!! But it'll be worth it for the freedom AND better control that having a pump will afford me. Especially if i'm very conscientious about it!

You know what, Hannah, we SHOULD do a fundraiser! I mean it wouldn't necessarily have to be for me, just diabetes research and such in general! We could make t-shirts! I want diabetes t-shirts!!!!!! I saw one that said "insulin power" on a diabetes blog. I WANT ONE!!!!!! Hmmm lets brainstorm fundraiser ideas!

Pump

Pumps are verrryy nice :) ill try to give you mine but if not we should totally do a fundraiser! We could have a 5k run or sell something and earn some of the money! That would be a lot of fun too!