A Few Thoughts

Amy- I love how I just gave this post a totally generic title. How boring of me. Why do I struggle so with titles?! Anyways.
Diabetes is a very curious diagnosis to grapple. I've had diabetes for 3 1/2 years now and I still find it hard to wrap my mind around it. Think about it: Diabetes is a chronic disease. Diabetes is a fatal disease. Diabetes is also a disease that, though it requires huge amounts of diligence, is wholly treatable. It's difficult to reconcile these 3 concepts! Basically, you have to resign yourself to to the fact that you'll ALWAYS have diabetes. At the same time, you're aware that if you don't take care of it and get sick, it's your own fault. At least, that's what we're led to believe. I know that a lot of aspects of diabetes are a direct result of my own self-care or lack of it, but I'm convinced that sometimes diabetes just gets the better of me! My blood sugar will run high for no reason, or will plummet down (like Hannah's did recently) and it's impossible to discern what the cause of the hypoglycemia is!
I struggle with diabetes management a lot, especially since I'm not on what is known as the "honeymoon" anymore. The honeymoon is the period of time after a diabetes diagnosis in which the diabetic's body responds to the insulin it is receiving by producing small amounts of insulin, thus making blood sugar control far easier. Of course, at the time I was monitoring my blood sugar far more carefully. Now, however, I find it rather difficult to summon the energy to micro-manage my diabetes care, which is really the best way to live long and healthfully.
So in the year of 2010 I should like to take control of my diabetes. Yes, I know that it's already halfway through the first month of 2o10, but I really needed to remind myself that I made a resolution that I really need to keep! Hence, this post. Slainte!